Sunday, January 23, 2011

New Years Resolution - 23 Days Late

What can I say? At least I am still doing it! One of my New Year's resolutions was to start posting to my blog again. Ok, I lied, I have been thinking about it since the previous New Year! Oh well, better late than never. So much has gone on since I stopped posting way back in 2009. I feel as if I have gotten a new lease on life. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes. It has taken me this long to say it out loud. I guess I was kind of afraid to. Did not want to jinx myself. It is time to face that fear. I have been on a journey to Hell and back and I never want to go back to the daily pain that basically crippled me from living. That person a year ago is not me. Looking back, it scares me what would have become of me if it would have gone on much longer. Through the whole ordeal, my husband stood by my side. He is the most wonderful husband. He encouraged me to seek out alternative treatments such as acupuncture and massage. He held my hand when I did not want to go to the doctors again. He shouldered allot of the burden and for that I am eternally grateful. With his, my family's and especially my Father in Heaven's help, I made it through. I feel wonderful! I do admit that sometimes, those old demons come calling but it is less and less and as I get more and more stronger(mentally and physically) I am able to chase them away. I think admitting this to the world, is a great next step in my healing. Thanks for reading.

Now enough said about that! I am going to try an post at least once a week(lofty goal, I know!) I hope you will stay tuned!